Half-alive.

 program(s) running

     Today I and my classmates attended Innovate IT at Valenzuela Auditorium. The topics are about Windows 8, MS Office 2010 & 2013 features, ASP.NET & jQuery. It was all interesting. I won this cute Hub Man (see picture above) by answering one of the questions of the speaker. What I hate on attending seminars is it’s too bitin. Like I want to learn more but there’s a time limit and it’s sad because I can never meet this person (the speaker) again.

     After that we went to SM North to help Hotness buy a gift for his boyf, we bought a watch, then we ate at 4 Fingers Crispy Chicken (just like Bon Chon’s, but 4FCC is yummier). We parted ways.

     I and friends from le church went to Trisha’s aunt’s funeral. Stayed there for like, two hours. Then we went home.

I swear I won’t be that somebody that you will used to know in the future if you’ll stay as what you are right now. Please don’t change because I am confident the way we are. Let’s stay like this forever.

Nasaan ka, Legarda?

     Today I went to Recto alone to seek for the store that sells this portable hard drive. Unfortunately, I suck at directions and following instructions so I kind of got lost. BTW I named my hdd LOST (ha-ha!). This morning I checked google on how to go to Pc Netmiles, Legarda. The instruction was clear and I figured out how to get there. But when I got down off at D. Jose Stn. on LRT line 1, the streets confused me (kuss they looked the same). I went straight through Rizal street (which, on the other hand I thought was Recto), but I realized that I’m not on the right street I went back to the LRT station, then headed off to Recto. Still not sure of where I’m going, I rode a jeep going to CEU, UE-Gastambide, etc etc., then I asked the driver where Legarda is, I went to the LRT 2 stn, Legarda. Then straight to the street where I reached Arellano U, I asked some girls where Recto Avenue, they told me to go forth, I don’t have any idea where was I at that moment, yeah, Legarda street and all, but there was no people, like it’s creepy, and the sign boards of the jeepneys are going to Cubao, which is way too far from where I’m going. Good thing, I texted PC Netmiles, they told me that their store is in front of Samson College. The first thing I thought when I read that is… Samson College is in Cubao, right? I was confused for a moment, but I came back again to Legarda station. I saw Simple Line tea shop, I ordered a honey-lemon black tea, it refreshed me and made me asked the cashier a question about Samson college, they told me to walk straight and I’ll find it. 

     Finally, after less than an hour of walking, or I guess it was more than an hour, I saw PC Netmiles. Off all the streets, why didn’t I went on the right ones first? *creys* Checked the product, chosen red over black because it’s too mainstream. I spent the money I saved since last year. Now I don’t have any. HUHU *shouts* MAROON 5 concert!!! :’(

     After that my cousin, who is, apparently studying in UE Manila, had decided to meet me. We met at UE Recto gate, then she treated me at KFC (we didn’t finished our foods because we ordered too much) we were both excited to tell stories because of all the cousins, we’re the closest, like we tell each other our deepest secrets, so yeah, I was happy ‘cause I saw her. <3 Then we went to McDo because she had to meet her classmates, and I had to leave, so we parted ways.

     ASFGHHJKJKLWCXZNVPQ, the letters from the alphabet is not enough to explain how happy I am. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MANILA! I WANT TO LIVE IN MANILA, I want to study there. I love the people and everything there. HUHUHU, why do I have to grow here and live here in Bulacan? </3 I want to own a unit in Manila.

Didn’t slept at home for two nights.

082512- Francis’ birthday. Pasta, burger steak, chocolate fondue, marshmallows, Fundador, Mojito, RH. Plus crush. <3

082612- Shyru’s burfday. Korean fried chicken, pancit bihon, menudo, videoke, tower, Emperador, RH. We left at past 4am.

082712- Slept over at Yean’s place with Ella, CJ, and Raymond. Spin the bottle and truth or dare. Had white adobo for breakfast. Left Yean’s crib at 4pm.

What a long weekend! This is actually the first time that I got home without being scolded off. For 19 years, I can say that this has been freedom. LOL. Had so much fun. :D

Maybe for you it means nothing. Call me a dictionary for giving so much meaning to everything, but when it comes to you. Just a smile is enough to be a hint about our future. Me, an unsent message to crush, 072712

A conversation with self.

  • Me: Being too attached.
  • Me: That is bad
  • Me: pag friends diba
  • Me: tapos nagiging close masyado ganyan
  • Me: May nabasa pa nga ako eh, friends mostly end up being lovers
  • Me: Yung feeling na, feeling mo nafo-fall ka sa tao
  • Me: Kaya nga lagi ko sinasabi sa sarili ko yan eh
  • Me: Don't get too attached
  • Me: Tapos yung sobrang closeness nyo, nung friend mo
  • Me: Baka humatong sa alam mo na.
  • Me: Na iniiwasan mo
  • Me: Kasi nga di mo kayang i-give up yung friendship nyo
  • Me: The thing here is
  • Me: I easily fall or get infatuated
  • Me: Which is wrong
  • Ok, so this is not really a conversation with myself but with a friend. I just deleted what he said 'cause it's too personal and I'm afraid he might read this in the near future. I just can't believe that I'm saying these words to someone.

A message to crush.

I wish that you’d feel the same way too… The way you avoid me, the way you give your attention to others, the way I feel sad about you not noticing me. But then again, I can never let you feel those because all I care about is you and I’ve always want to see your smile. Even if that smile is not for me and that happiness has nothing to do with me.

Thoughts as of 11:50pm

Third week.

  • I got 39 out of 40 on my first quiz. So close!
  • I’m literally studying, really.
  • I submitted an application form to Dawn, the official newspaper of the school. IDK, I feel like applying. Perhaps, it’s free.
  • TTh schedule is really exhausting
  • Boyfran and I barely see each other :(
  • Dean approved the subject I waived (but still, I have to go to the registrar for the confirmation)
  • So happy about the approval! I jumped and hugged Mae (one of my closest girl friend) ‘cause she was the nearest friend I have atm
  • I texted boyfran to tell him that my proposal was approved by the Dean
  • Classmates and I are planning to go to the OutbreakManila!
  • I have to give up one of my subjects so that I could enrol on the subject that I waived. Sad, but it’s fine.
  • Facebook is loading fucking slow!!!!
  • Just finished downloading Maroon 5’s Overexposed! Yaayyyy!
  • Tomorrow’s Friday, boyfran and I are classmates in a subject. Hihi <3

Look how adorable he is whenever he kisses me, or even just smile.
I secretly smile whenever I see him, I don&#8217;t mind if he sees it or not. At school, my favorite part of the day is when we&#8217;ll meet in the morning, then make glances at each other (like we&#8217;ve never done before, but we always do that). That&#8217;s what good in a relationship, it helps you forget your problems while you&#8217;re with your love. &lt;3

Look how adorable he is whenever he kisses me, or even just smile.

I secretly smile whenever I see him, I don’t mind if he sees it or not. At school, my favorite part of the day is when we’ll meet in the morning, then make glances at each other (like we’ve never done before, but we always do that). That’s what good in a relationship, it helps you forget your problems while you’re with your love. <3

Things I’m good at:

  • Making eye contacts
  • Late night conversations
  • Posting a screen shot of my desktop
  • Saying the words I’m on a diet
  • Staring at something or someone
  • Watching porn
  • Waiting
  • Over-thinking
  • Singing randomly
  • Staying awake
  • Reading tweets, and blogs
  • Day dreaming